In the past days (months, nearly one year) I have been frozen or stopped in a dead point of my life. I mean, I don't know when is that moments where fear grips us (me) and we start to live in circles and acting like a dummy.
I've been a slave of darkness. It's not that I have participated on diabolic rituals. No. I felt like love was dead, I felt that I was alone, completely alone in this world and that I was worthless. I really was scared about death or something that I can't even figure it out.
Alexander McQueen's death made me feel a terrible pain in my stomach and at the same time I was awakened.
Yes. I was sleeping or hibernating like a bear. I know I said this before but my fear to "die" killed me. I wasn't really living. Alexander showed me with his death that life is a story we write with our hands, our words and blood. And I don't want that my story show a being full of fear for life. I have an amazing family and I have the best friends. I know God loves me. So I want to live. 
Alexander saved my life.
He's my hero. He taught me that being different is being beautiful. He showed me that mind has no limitations and our soul is more than what we think it is.
Let's pray for Alexander eternal rest and let's live like no tomorrow.
Let's laugh and let's party with our family and friends.
Let's love until it hurts and let's do the most we love to do.
The time is now. There are no guarantees and I just understood that we are not immortal, but, yeah there is a BUT, Our legacy, one photo of us, our memory in someone else's mind is what makes us eternal.

Hug your loved ones.
Tell them you love them.

I know one day we'll see the light.
Thank you God. I just saw a glow and I cannot wait to live like I used to.


With Love.

- FER IRIGOYEN -